Baby Steps...

Lately I've been reading "The Shack" and really have started to see things in a way I haven't seen them before. I know the writer isn't God himself, but I've still learned a lot more about my Creator and my relationship with Him. Because of this book I'm going to dig deeper into God, rely on Him for everything, kill my independent spirit and replace with one living on relationships- especially with my Savior. Making progress isn't always a forward motion, sometimes you have to turn back to get results. I know I can't do any of this alone so I'll need to first work on embracing the TEAM effort and focus on living life wit the knowledge that I'm an insanely loved child of God.

I accidentally just flicked/flipped off one of my best friends. I've let society work it's evils on me. Fail.

This week I'm really trying to apply Matthew 6:33 in my life. God calls us to seek first the kingdom of heaven. He doesn't say second, third, when you have time, or later in life. He specificall says seek, in the present tense so that we can know that God and His kingdom should continually come first in our lives. This verse really hits home because I often find myself putting other things before the Most High Creator and by doing this I spend more time with the products of the Creator rather than the Creates Himself. This week and for the rest of my life i pray that God will give me the strength and longing to "walk out" Matthew 6:33.

Psalm 91-
put all your faith and trust in God and take Him up on His word that promises that He- the Creator and Ruler of EVERYTHING will be with you WHENEVER you face danger.

Matthew 6:14
God specifically states that it's wrong to hold a grudge. We must forgive our wrong doers not only because God forgives us but to receive His graceous forgiveness in the first place.

My support group makes all the difference in my spiritual life. Thank you my beautiful sisters for everything you do for me.

Matthew 22:37 read it as a literal task. It made my mind realize what i must first and foremost do in my life.

Computer crashed but i have lots to fill you in on :) !! Can't wait to share with you!! God is working in many crazy awesome spectacular ways :)

p.s. Best coffee bible study group ever!! Love you ladies :)

Romans 7:14-25
in each and everyday of life there is a battle within you and around you for your soul and where your commitments lie. Don't walk onto the battle field naked but rather armed with the weapons and armour of the Lord. Thank you God for fighting with me and for me.

Lord, I ask you for patience in life. Thanks for Your many blessing an all my payers that have already been answered.

Dear Lord. Help me to let go and forgive the people and things i hold onto in revenge or hate

Father, thank You for blessing the time with my sister in You tonight. Open my heart to hear and see the chances to share Your gift to humans with others. Help me to make You my my life and fit everything else around that rather than trying to fit You in my life. I love You Lord. Thank You for softening my heart and bringing me to You.

Father, I need you

Dear Lord,
I'd just like to tell You how beautiful your skies have been lately. Just the very sight of them stops me in my tracks and reminds me of all the wonderful things that You've done. Lately though I've been struggling with where my mind has been. I've been so lost in thought about the matters of this world; prom, college, getting a job, basically everything but You. If I am truly going to be your daughter and best friend than I need to gain a mindset that will set me apart from the materialism in this world and bring me closer to you. Dear Father I just ask you to walk by my side throughout each day giving me the strength to turn away from the things of this world and replace them with a strong desire to be filled up with you. Thank you so much for chasing after my heart and bringing me to You.

Thank you Lord so much for the gift of my christ following, supportive, and loving, friend. She means so much to me and i just want to thank you for allowing me to meet her and the chance to have her touch my life

I miss you Lord. Please put a desire on my heart to chase after You and never stop

Contract With My Savior

Today in church my pastor preached the gospel during the service to prepare us for communion. When he was wrapping up the message he addressed the fact that God comes to you and softens your heart you can't just pick when you want to accept His gift and expect the Lord to come sprinting into your life when you say the time is right. No, This way of thinking is completely backwards - it is human nature to reject God and the gift he offers through the death of His Son, the only reason one might come to accept this gift is because the Lord came to them, softened their heart, and worked a miracle in their lives. The person themselves did nothing but the very desire to accept God's gift of eternal life with Him was brought into the person's mind by God's own doing. After this statement was made my pastor went on to talk about how the mindset that you can accept God and His gift later - after high school, after marriage, after retirement, whichever you choose, is entirely presumptuous because we are not all guaranteed time or a later.
The thought of a future that wasn't guaranteed really helped me to realize that it was about time I took action and turned my life around. Even though I am a christian I still wasn't trying my absolute hardest to walk the walk. James 2:16-18 says:

"16If one of you says to him, "Go, I wish you well; keep warm and well fed," but does nothing about his physical needs, what good is it? 17In the same way, faith by itself, if it is not accompanied by action, is dead.
18But someone will say, "You have faith; I have deeds."
Show me your faith without deeds, and I will show you my faith by what I do."

For this reason God has convicted my heart to the works that I've been doing and given me the desire too "shape up." In order to do this I created a contract that I'm going to read each morning and consciously make the decision to "sign" the contract with my Lord and Savior so that I can have a constant reminder of what God wants to see in my life.


::CONTRACT WITH MY SAVIOR::
1. I will strive to do ALL things to bring You more glory.
2. I will put the "me" in life to rest and instead fill up my being with You by doing things to benefit You.
3. I will fill my life with excellence so that there isn't any room left for evil to lurk and tempt me. (Philippians 4:7-8)
4. I won't hide my faith or deny Your name, but instead I'll pronounce my love for You for all to see which will hopefully result in more people coming to know Your love for them.
5. I will spend intimate time with You daily so that I can get to know my soon to be best friend in a deeper and more personal level.
6. I will give my whole life to You rather than keeping bits and pieces to myself for me to control.
7. I will love my neighbor as myself and work hard on not judging people as man sees them but instead as souls and people that can possibly come to know You and live with You for eternity.
8. Instead of living for this world I will strive to live for You and my future home on the New Earth.

*This contract is flexible and subject to additions in order to further my relationship with Christ and to live the life He wants me to. Without God's help none of these things would be possible so each day I shall look to God for strength and support in order to do my very best to be the person God wants me to be and to be set apart from this world. The purpose of this contract isn't to make rules and punish myself for failing (because I do know I'll make mistakes) but instead it is supposed to be a daily reminder to myself to show me what exactly it is that I'm Living For.
Thank you Lord for bringing this conviction on my heart and I pray that with Your help I can become the Christ Follower that You want me to be.

I.m feeling so lonely. I would really love It if i could have a man in my life. But i painfully realize now that i need to be with God before I.m ready to be with another man. My goal: fall head over heels for God.

To my future husband..
Tonight i screwed up.. Again. I slapped God in the face and deprived you of all i can offer. My sin is eating me alive but i pray that with my Savior's help i can stop the unhealthy lust completely..

My desire for fashion, relationships, love, status, And money are all preventing me from living a life different from those around me. I would specifically like to be different from those around me by resisting the lust of people And beverages, by dressing modestly so as to not lead my brothers astray, And by doing everything to increase God's glory rather than my own. Dear Father please give me the strength and overflow me with You so that i can live a life set apart from those around me.
1 john 2:15-17

Thank you Lord for blessing our fundraiser!!

Acts 17:11

Psalm 176. Lord help me to be submissive to You. Motivating my mind with You rather than Your gifts

Extreme revamp on priorities is necessary

Anxiety is ruling my life.

Really having a hard time putting the future in God's hands rather than trying to control It myself. Also my weird dreams are starting up again.

Fill my brain And mind And life with things of excellence

God makes It plain And simple before our eyes.. Praise And fill your time with God like things. That way you're stuffed with Him leaving no space for evil. I love my Lord. Thank You for laying this out And helping me grasp the concept.

The peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable-if anything is excellent or praiseworthy-think about such things.
Phillipians 4:7-8

Dear Daddy thank you for the glorious night sky! I can't wait to join in all the heavenly worship:) every tongue shall proclaim You're glory :) love you Father

Dear heavenly Father. Please give me the strength to own up to my weaknesses And feel comfortable enough to talk about them. Thank You for all that You already provide me with. Your daughter, nicole

I.m craving love And satisfying myself by judging others. Lord please give me the strength to over come these worldly desires.