Tuesday, March 30, 2010

Lord, I ask you for patience in life. Thanks for Your many blessing an all my payers that have already been answered.

Wednesday, March 24, 2010

Dear Lord. Help me to let go and forgive the people and things i hold onto in revenge or hate

Tuesday, March 23, 2010

Father, thank You for blessing the time with my sister in You tonight. Open my heart to hear and see the chances to share Your gift to humans with others. Help me to make You my my life and fit everything else around that rather than trying to fit You in my life. I love You Lord. Thank You for softening my heart and bringing me to You.

Monday, March 22, 2010

Father, I need you

Dear Lord,
I'd just like to tell You how beautiful your skies have been lately. Just the very sight of them stops me in my tracks and reminds me of all the wonderful things that You've done. Lately though I've been struggling with where my mind has been. I've been so lost in thought about the matters of this world; prom, college, getting a job, basically everything but You. If I am truly going to be your daughter and best friend than I need to gain a mindset that will set me apart from the materialism in this world and bring me closer to you. Dear Father I just ask you to walk by my side throughout each day giving me the strength to turn away from the things of this world and replace them with a strong desire to be filled up with you. Thank you so much for chasing after my heart and bringing me to You.

Saturday, March 13, 2010

Thank you Lord so much for the gift of my christ following, supportive, and loving, friend. She means so much to me and i just want to thank you for allowing me to meet her and the chance to have her touch my life
I miss you Lord. Please put a desire on my heart to chase after You and never stop

Sunday, March 7, 2010

Contract With My Savior

Today in church my pastor preached the gospel during the service to prepare us for communion. When he was wrapping up the message he addressed the fact that God comes to you and softens your heart you can't just pick when you want to accept His gift and expect the Lord to come sprinting into your life when you say the time is right. No, This way of thinking is completely backwards - it is human nature to reject God and the gift he offers through the death of His Son, the only reason one might come to accept this gift is because the Lord came to them, softened their heart, and worked a miracle in their lives. The person themselves did nothing but the very desire to accept God's gift of eternal life with Him was brought into the person's mind by God's own doing. After this statement was made my pastor went on to talk about how the mindset that you can accept God and His gift later - after high school, after marriage, after retirement, whichever you choose, is entirely presumptuous because we are not all guaranteed time or a later.
The thought of a future that wasn't guaranteed really helped me to realize that it was about time I took action and turned my life around. Even though I am a christian I still wasn't trying my absolute hardest to walk the walk. James 2:16-18 says:

"16If one of you says to him, "Go, I wish you well; keep warm and well fed," but does nothing about his physical needs, what good is it? 17In the same way, faith by itself, if it is not accompanied by action, is dead.
18But someone will say, "You have faith; I have deeds."
Show me your faith without deeds, and I will show you my faith by what I do."

For this reason God has convicted my heart to the works that I've been doing and given me the desire too "shape up." In order to do this I created a contract that I'm going to read each morning and consciously make the decision to "sign" the contract with my Lord and Savior so that I can have a constant reminder of what God wants to see in my life.

1. I will strive to do ALL things to bring You more glory.
2. I will put the "me" in life to rest and instead fill up my being with You by doing things to benefit You.
3. I will fill my life with excellence so that there isn't any room left for evil to lurk and tempt me. (Philippians 4:7-8)
4. I won't hide my faith or deny Your name, but instead I'll pronounce my love for You for all to see which will hopefully result in more people coming to know Your love for them.
5. I will spend intimate time with You daily so that I can get to know my soon to be best friend in a deeper and more personal level.
6. I will give my whole life to You rather than keeping bits and pieces to myself for me to control.
7. I will love my neighbor as myself and work hard on not judging people as man sees them but instead as souls and people that can possibly come to know You and live with You for eternity.
8. Instead of living for this world I will strive to live for You and my future home on the New Earth.

*This contract is flexible and subject to additions in order to further my relationship with Christ and to live the life He wants me to. Without God's help none of these things would be possible so each day I shall look to God for strength and support in order to do my very best to be the person God wants me to be and to be set apart from this world. The purpose of this contract isn't to make rules and punish myself for failing (because I do know I'll make mistakes) but instead it is supposed to be a daily reminder to myself to show me what exactly it is that I'm Living For.
Thank you Lord for bringing this conviction on my heart and I pray that with Your help I can become the Christ Follower that You want me to be.

Thursday, March 4, 2010

I.m feeling so lonely. I would really love It if i could have a man in my life. But i painfully realize now that i need to be with God before I.m ready to be with another man. My goal: fall head over heels for God.
To my future husband..
Tonight i screwed up.. Again. I slapped God in the face and deprived you of all i can offer. My sin is eating me alive but i pray that with my Savior's help i can stop the unhealthy lust completely..